my little story

Ada kala penah x kita t’fikir bila hati kita dilukai or terluka disebab kn oleh org yg kita syg ,tapi apa kita buat bila hati sudah terluka ??? adakah kita menagis ?? adakah kita buat bodoh ?? adakah kita cuba cari jln utk pulihkan hati yg sudah terluka tu..jujur aku ckap aku sendiri pon xtahu apa patot aku buat…. aku keliru dgn diri aku ?? aku sering tertanya2 adakah aku patot marah pada diri sendiri atau pada org yg melukakan hati kita nie???  tapi aku penah jgak terfikir yg aku patot b’syukur dgn apa yg dah jadi pada diri aku nie,sebabnya aku dapat tahu n rasa bgai mana rasanya bila hati terluka supaya lain kali aku sentiasa b’ingat xkn luka kn hati org yg aku syg …..ermmm tapi susah jgk nk cakap sbb bila hati dah terluka sakitnya teramat lahh sgt2 pedih yg dirasa x dapat dibayangkn .so ingat2 lahhh jgn sesekali sakit kn hati org yg kita syg terutama family,kwn2 rapat & bf or gf…..apa yg kita buat pada org hari ini munkin org lain akan buat pada diri kita di lain hari …..

Do you know where your heart is ?
Do you think you can find it ?
Did you trade it for something, somewhere
Better just to have it

Do you know where your love is ?
Do you think that you lost it ?
You felt it so strong but nothings
Turned out how you want it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold
Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you know what your fate is
And are you trying to shake it
You`re doing your best and
You`re best look
You`re praying that you`ll make it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold

Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Better than you have it

Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Better than you have it
Better than you have it
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Said all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Do you know where the end is
Do you think you can see it
Until you get there
Go on
Go ahead and scream it
Just say

hari nie aku belajar sesuatu yg baru dlm hidop ini,sesuatu yg dulunye aku ambil mudah ..dalam dunia nie rupa2nye byk jenis manusia yg ada & kini aku dah jumpa antara manusia yg paling keji dlm hidop aku ,antara manusia yg boleh aku anggap pemusnah ..manusia yg pandai belakon dihadapan semua org  …manusia yg pandai meletak kn kesalah kepada org lain …manusia yg pandai berpura2 hanye utk mendapatkan kemenagan …manusia sbegini sukar utk kita lihat kejahilanye kerna ia terlalu pandai berpura2 …

I am leaving. I am not sure I will be back. I am not sure. I need a break. I need something more than all these words suffocating me. I hurt. I ache….I have been standing in my loneliness for so long that I can’t remember what it is to not feel lonely. I have be handling it. Pressing on and holding it down for a very long time. I am without question, strong and resilient. I am nothing if not resilient.
My life can sometimes get the better of me…right now it is. I am surrendering to what is. I have got to sit and rest and be quiet and not talk. I am weakened. This is the hardest truth to tell. My heart is broken. I am unsure in every my steps… I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop crying over stupid shit, this is my love, SHIT. I don’t know who can hold me, who can hold me up. I am not so sure anyone can. I am not so sure of too much. What little I know is that Love lives in me. I do not doubt the depth and wealth of love in me. I turn my attention inward to my heart and soul. To listen for the divine. To fill my mind with healing words. To pray, contemplate, and discern what to do next & what should i do…

my heart break into pieces today..someone must be responsible for it..now i know..why 2 different soul cannot come too close…this is the consequence….heartbreak..

love is something that u cant find easily..

apa sbenar yg aku cari dlm hdop ini???

kbahagian ??? kbahagian yg kita sendiri x tahu dimana pghujung nya …x salah klu kita mahu bhgian dlm hdop kita tapi kita perlu beringat kepada stiap kbhgian tu tidak sentiasa berkekal seperti mane yg kita harap kn …oleh itu pasti kn kita tidak terbang tinggi bersama kbhgian yg kita perolehi kerna 1 hari di hujung jln kbhgian yg kita ada akan hilang dah kita akan jatuh bersamanya …..

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit - it’s my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

kejujuran yg membawa kepada kesedihan ….

pernah kah kita terfikir kejujuran yg lahir dr hati boleh membawa kepada kesedihan …itu tidak bemakna kita tidak harus bersikap jujur ….ada kala kita perlu berfikir sebelom bersikap jujur,tidak semua pkara kita harus bersikap jujur ..ada kala sesuatu perkara yg kita rasa kn tidak harus di luah kan demi menjaga hati & perasaan seseorg yg kita syg…kerna tidak semua kejujuran membawa kebahagian ..

fikir2 kan ??????????

kini baru ku sedar erti sebuah kasih syg & ikatan  ..

kasih syg yg mkin kita lupa apa akan erti kasih syg yg sebenarnye

kini aku amat fahami akan erti kasih syg

apa bila kita berjauhan dgan org yg kita teramat syg

terutama keluarga ,kekasih & teman2 yg kita amat syg

kita pasti akan rasa sepeti kehilagan sesuatu…

mkin ada yg merasa kn kasih syg & sebuah ikatan terlalu biasa apabila kita sentiasa bersama dgan org yg kita sayangi ….

tetapi kita tidak sedar apa bila kita berjauhan kita akan rasa kehilagan yg begitu besar dlm hidop kita…

oleh itu hargai lahhh org yg kita syg bila mereka disamping kita

bukan hanye apabila kita berjauhan sahaje ….